Hello to all my brave readers! This blog is essentially going to be a dumping place for the random thoughts that go through my brain. Expect to see what’s currently happening in my life, as well as commentary on faith, music, and Doctor Who. I’ll try to make it as entertaining as possible, but I can’t promise anything.
For those who don’t know, I’m taking the semester off from Truman. A combination of factors led to my decision, including anxiety issues and the fact that I still don’t know what I want to major in even though I’m a senior. In the meantime, I’m living at home in Iowa and taking two classes at Kirkwood (the local community college, not the STL suburb) as well as an online electrical engineering class. Hopefully, I’ll be able to get my academic self-confidence back.
I feel like I’m in some kind of transitional phase. I’ve always had some kind of plan for my life. I might have changed that plan every other week, but at least I had one. However, now that I actually need to start making decisions about where I want to go and what I want to do with my life, my mind is blank. I’m trying to figure out who I am and what God’s will is for me, but so far I’m still in the dark. I’m hoping that God is using this time somehow. In the words of Romans 8:28: “All of these things work together for good.” I wish I knew what His plan were, but I hope that although now I “see through a glass darkly, but then I shall know in full.”
Oh, and there will also likely be book commentary!
The blog looks nice. I’m sorry to hear you still aren’t sure what you want to do. Believe me, I know exactly how you feel. I’ve had so many changes of mind on what I want to do, and sometimes I even consider going back for another undergrad degree. I’ve been getting a lot of writing done, but I still don’t have a job, mainly because I feel like I need to have my future figured out. I’ve also been struggling with my moods and anxiety as well.
Maybe a semester off from Truman is exactly what you need. Here’s something to think about. When picking a major, don’t think so much about how interesting you’d find the major. Instead, look at what jobs you might be able to do with that major and decide if that’s something you can see yourself doing for years and years.
Maybe you can use this time to figure out what you’re truly passionate about. This reminds me of a great quote that I found today in (of all places) a fantasy novel.
“A man is what he has passion about. I’ve found that if you give up what you want most for what you think you want more, you’ll just end up miserable.”
Now you just have to figure out what you have passion about. For me, I know I’m passionate about writing, but I need to find something else I’m at least a little bit passionate about.
Hope you get things sorted out soon. Being back at home, I’ve missed hanging out with you.